Looking back over my posts I’ve written , I see a definite slow down after Christmas with only two posts in Jan, Feb and March each, then nothing until now.  Well, what can I say?  I find winter extremely hard to get through and this winter has been no exception.  Suddenly though in the last few weeks I find a huge surge of energy coursing through me; I’m able to start a more active yoga practise again, I can go to the gym again, I want to get out and do some gardening, it’s easier to walk to school.  In short I feel revitalised, and it’s a great feeling.  And once again I feel inspired to write this blog.

Throughout the winter months, I found it hard to motivate myself to do very much at all: I was either too tired, too poorly or just plain stuck in my SADness.  If you also suffer from SAD then you’ll know how awful it can be.  Next year I plan to try a light box and see where that gets me. 

Of course in this country it can still feel wintry quite often even during the summer months, I came home the other day to find that my other half had switched on the central heating, when I might have forced myself to endure it shivering.  But it isn’t winter…It feels different, the air smells different, the light and colours are completely different and I feel that difference in myself.  The flowers are blooming and so am I.

This winter I noticed an interesting difference in my approach to myself and my ‘condition’, a healthier and more compassionate approach.  I gave myself permission to take things more easily, I let myself enjoy my restorative yoga practise.  I positively chose to ignore those voices telling me that I should just push myself through these feelings, or even push myself out of them.  So I rested a lot more, ignoring more voices telling me off for watching movies in the daytime!  I did loads of restorative postures which helped me to relax and quell the anxiety.  I did the minimum amount of work that I could get away with.  And, you know what, despite feeling not at all brilliant, I did have some quite nice moments through it all, knowing it would come to an end and I would be a different person again.  And here we are.  Spring has sprung and I have too.